Ingesting you feverishly
Feeling you reach down into my soul
Yanking and pulling
Expanding and contracting
Until I became
From my own delusions
Sunny afternoons that felt like dark nights
Scratching and clawing
Just for a little more of you
Begging God to
“Just give me one more chance
This is my last time. I promise”
But, it never is.
Driving by, laughing and pointing at the future me
Locking the door as life’s lonely prisoner begs me for help
Looking in disgust as I wonder how this fool lost his dignity
I know now
And am running from that existence
Hardship has taught me more than a book or lecture ever could
I am not going to say that I won’t be back
We both know
I probably will
But just in case I don’t
I will always remember you.
The Perfect Woman
Understands my motives, so she can forgive my actions
Is dependent on me for all of her shortcomings and allows me to be dependent on her for all of mine
Is as eager to hear about my day as she is to tell me about hers
Understands her issues as well as mine and is constantly working to improve both
Can cook my three favorite meals and has a at least one dish that she makes better than anyone else
Can tell me when I’m wrong in a way that I can understand
Shares my joy and passions
Only spends “our” money on things for us
Would live in a cardboard box as long as it was with me
Is an intellectual because without good conversation there is no relationship
Is always open and honest because without trust there is no relationship
Can attract my attention without being annoying
Curses because I find that sexy
Stays fit because she knows that lust is just as real as love
Is in tune with her sexuality and mine
Occasionally calls me around lunchtime to say the sexiest and nastiest things I’ve ever heard because she knows I can get through any day knowing that she is at home waiting for me
Reads and critiques my blog because she knows and I crave feedback and am obsessed with self improvements.
2 weeks notice
You are my greatest weakness. I have an uncanny attraction for you that I’ve never been able to overcome.
The End of the World
Like a moth flying perilously into the fires of hell
I am drawn to her.
Songs of love and heartbreak battle for supremacy in my brain.
My heart cries out
Please leave that crazy bitch alone!
Make it stop!
I ask the emptiness,
“Why are ups often followed by downs?”
I am answered.
“They say love conquers all…
Good advice from those who wish you well,
And the prayers of former lovers who suffered because of you, as you now suffer from her
Has conquered my sanity
Slain my well being
Pillaged my sense of self
And as I lay here
with the wind building in my chest
And the ocean threatening to flood my eyes
I welcome the storm
Because without this pain
or this love
or that rain
There is no life.
I love you